Aha! I found my old MySpace page...
www.myspace.com/roxation
Sweet~ all blogs finally in one website...
Keyboard's messed up again~
Sitting here plotting up my next chapt..
All i got right now is Roguey being badass with no Johnny in it..
Wondering where to insert Johnny~
Hmmm....
Did I mention pressure from reviews creates writer blockage~
Mum's nagging again~ so I shall escape here for some peace of mind..
Till it's bedtime!
- Location:room
- Mood:
blank - Music:What I've Done - Linkin Park
Ok.. so.. bored & staring at the computer trying to write another chapter of LMSU and I have no idea how to start it..
the fact that i'm supposed to check the classifieds for a job~ well not in the mood..
What happened yesterday was like putting on a genuine smile on my face~
The most effective cure to be happy : hanging out with my SG buddies
Americans frienz don't quite cut it..
They assume too much, u say something like you don't like this person or some stupid school subject & the next thing you know ~ they go "Aww, I'm sorry...." Well, please tell me... what are you sorry for? Because I don't get you one bit. And the fact that they need to apologize grates on my nerves.. You ask me how I'm feeling, so I tell you quite bluntly.. not to get your sympathy.
I. Don't. Need. Any. Of. Your. Damn. Sympathy.
So to put it quite briefly, got woken up at 8am, went to the gym with my psycho-sports-maniac sis & my dad, left for Cheng San CC in a hurry coz we're always late & rushing, went to amk to repair dad's old wristwatch to be given to me coz I lost my latest watch... Oops!
12pm was me rushing from amk hub all the way back to the cc to fetch my lil sis.
1pm: lunch (me on a liquid diet) My mum is a lil obsessive when it comes to weight.. I don't like when she keeps asking abt my weight; I deem that crazy..
soo... 2 pm + left for the bishan mrt
made it at 3-3:15pm at bugis... if u minus the purposely missing the train.. I see people rushed out from my train just to clamber into a much more sandwich-packed, squashed as a tomato, rectangular container.. the next one was a lil less crowded
so after that, I pretty much stare at the exit which had all the letters, looked at the map but it didn't show iluma at all.. came out at the right exit this time... I have a tendency to get lost in town when alone~ can't read maps right or have too much nervous energy to think straight..
anyways, found iluma staring right at me, weird building looked like a glittering football on the front then a normal-looking red building at the back... The first again, I should not be surprised at least..
Always the first to reach minus Mag, since she loves being punctual for some odd reason.. should have just strolled into junction 8, watch people rush by, and laugh lol~
What amazes me is that Prisca arrives 2nd... Understatement: I am SHOCKED!
She's usually last ~ everytime we meet, she's the last one..
So yeah.. amazing!! >3
And then we ended or I ended up buying tickets for everyone for a 4:15pm one.. That Allison has really good timing coz she called me when I was about to buy the 3:40pm ones.. hoping that they can teleport lols
So... watched Transformers 2 with her, Allie, & her friend from DOMO, Grace.. It's nice to meet the player behind the game character~
Explosions, loads of battle scenes, very very (times infinity) gorgeous, sexy, stunning MEGAN FOX!!! I can't help but say I'm attracted to her..
SO DAMN SEXY!! While watching it, my mind is whirling with all the good ideas popping into my mind for the next chapter of X-Men story..
So I half-zoned, half-watched the movie! I admire Michael Bay; HE IS THE BESTEST DIRECTOR EVER!!!!
ll ll
\\// \\//
Yeah I'm good at that, mentally multi-tasking
I think at that part, where this random mime pops up in between Sam's parents, I bet that was Michael himself. I heard most directors love to appear as some random character in their movies.. You just have to watch very closely..
Anyways, finished my LarGe Coke at the part of some Decepticon bot, some weird vacuum bot in the desert, suck & suck, gave a little shake, & shook my head at my own amazement of finishing the drink that fast.. MOVIE MUST BE DAMN GOOD!!
Then when Sam fell to victim by those evil bots, I think that was the part where I felt the urge.....
but no pause button lah, sian......... control, control, ok.. finish liao, how come they don't want to move??!!!! so hold till the end, then runnnnn... i don't even wanna know what they say/think abt the episode..
Dinner at some Jap. restuarant, waaaa.. food.. unagi, sushi, etc.. STM... daze lol
I think I really shouldn't have down that coke... no more space for dinner..
So later, wander wander into some cosplay, anime shop..?
then train home... miss the stop, take taxi..
didn't sleep till 3am last night.. too much sugar
had some weird dream which still lingers~
something that had to do with watching megan fox....
the part where ppl will surely go... Okkkayyyyyy.... O_o
a lot lot of kissing of my dream boyz (high sch. crush) if i ever see him again, i'll never let him go~ xD
then some movie flashbacks with some Rogue & Pyro scenes to put in my new chapter.
then the weirdness craziness took place..
had a lil bit of crush on a girl in my club~ she doesnt know.. thank god! -.-"
we kissed.. & went into some forbidden territory~ NC-17!!
i'm not gay~ can't say that i'm not gay considering that you never kissed a girl before so...
can't really really say i'm straight either considering that one time i think i had a lapse of judgement & went on some online dating site just for girls-meet-girls website..
tried the whole online gay dating for like 1 week.. why? bored ma...
my college friends really know how to bore me..
so I'm prolly somewhere in the gray~
sides, I really like her~ she even had her hair styled to that Alice Cullen hairstyle, looked so damn cute with it.. can't think straight whenever she's near me... omg.omg.omg.. soo wrong! desparately need a bf to cling to..
great timing for my ex- to suddenly start chatting with me again,
only this time he wants me to come back to FFXII to play as a sexy rdm~
which I'm already tempted, having read all of the updates..
but broke as hell, & I'm quite afraid I will kill this laptop here before summer ends
so I kinda told him to well... wait... patience .. his thing, not mine..
the torture really
at this moment, all i'm doing is keeping myself together & pretty much counting down the days till Harry Potter is released..
mean time, finding a job sounds good right now..
okay rant over... put the mask back on.. so i don't look like a grinning Joker maniac while typing this crazy tangent...
>3
- Location:room
- Mood:
giddy - Music:Cerberus - X-ray Dog
If I died
I am certain
you will be relieved.
No more bills
No talking back
I will be nothing more
but a mere memory
of your nightmare.
Are you ready?
Do you wish it?
I can make it happen.
My choice
My life
An empty shell
Filled with mistakes
I am not your perfect one
Not always the first...
Not always the sweetest..
The black sheep
What I am.
What am I?
A guinea pig...
I am what I am.
A mere mistake
Your regret.
My bedroom is neat & organized
yet you find comfort in the messy one
My grades were better than hers
yet you like the thrill of the winning one
filled with medals & awards
I am the oldest
but you love the younger more.
Yes, I admit I make mistakes
She does too.
but you scream at me
all the time.
You close your eyes when she does.
You think your love
is divided equally
Why?
Why can't I feel any?
I hear praise only from you
when we're in company
but never in private.
Am I just your shame?
You want to be rid of me
don't you?
I feel your hate
or is it love?
- Location:wallowing in blood
- Mood:
melancholy - Music:The Dark Knight Soundtrack
All alone and lonely
from within a crowd,
a sea of happy faces
obilivous
Lost in the crowd
she searches
for a familar face
She finds none
for they
abandoned her
All alone and lonely
she stands
Nothing to fall back on
Yet...
she continues to wait
waiting
for him
Hoping he comes
for her
Save her~
- Location:can't be traced..
- Mood:
pensive
so I'm sitting here, being forced to babysit jfk
and I'm just wondering...
maybe I should go and find a job
mum's been naggin me for days
like she can't wait to be rid of me
I should have taken some summer classes
postpone my leaving a lot lot later
if I knew she was gonna be this nagsome
don't feel like doing anything though
juz wanna dream I'm somewhere else but
~
home
~
so here I am, stuck with a 4-yr old
hyper-active
screamer
impatient
rascal
...
and I'm just wondering...
maybe I should go and find a job
mum's been naggin me for days
like she can't wait to be rid of me
I should have taken some summer classes
postpone my leaving a lot lot later
if I knew she was gonna be this nagsome
don't feel like doing anything though
juz wanna dream I'm somewhere else but
~
home
~
so here I am, stuck with a 4-yr old
hyper-active
screamer
impatient
rascal
...
- Location:meh room
- Mood:
grumpy
My muse has ran away at the most importune time. Left me high and dry on one of my best scene whenever it comes to father-son/boy-girl romance, it ups and leaves.
bloody muses... now I'm stuck wondering wth to spend my rest of my other time on.. play games?? ehh not really in the mood in killing this laptop which has a tendency to crash before I leave for campus. Last time that happened, I was out without a computer for 3 frigging weeks!!! my family's desktop... >>> slow as a snail.
>3
maybe i should go call my other friends... sighs once again.. or maybe a nap would be great right now. ahhh but sleeping in the day time.. would be gaining fat and I am already a bit fat as in put on weight + can't wear my favorite shorts.. irritating.. coz I hate shopping.... and my hair.. it's gotten so long like its the longest it will ever gets till I get my ass into a salon demanding for a stylish hair style since I'm quite bored with the usual long, straight hairstyle.
longest in my family too. Aaahhh! omg, this boredom is killing me... and it seems like everytime I get back for the summer, i notice the asian network sucks more than my college campus one. It takes longer to load and it tends to crash every now and then. Oh and I'm sweating just by sitting next to this ridiculous hot thing!
- Location:room
- Mood: bored
Waiting for time to fly
Watching the planes arrive
&
Wondering when it's time
Missing home
A place where I always belong
~
What's it like to move from place to place
To adapt to different time zones
The cultures to experience
Friends to make
Mix the old and new
~
An lifelong journey
one will love and enjoy
A long-lasting experience to share
~
What's it like to see the people you miss
To catch up on old times
Make new memories, strong ones
That we will always remember
And laugh back on
~
There's still things to learn
There's still time
It's not the end for me..
Is it yours?
I have a nagging feeling in my mind. I don't think I told my parents my new number. They haven't called me yet. Yeah, that's probably why. Oh well, I'll see them in 2 days time. I miss my baby <3
- Location:The Oasis
- Mood:
artistic
... ... 3 more hours till I gotta go to my economics final ~ open notebook n textbook ~ and the fact that he set it on the last day usually means its a hella exam. I wonder if 2 hrs is even enough to complete them. mee bored.. n I'm too wired to do anything.
Can't play games cuz I can't really stop if I play one now.. well depending on the game itself though..
Missed House finale.. sigh.. Sometimes I forget I don't have a tv and get myself so hyped to realize no tv = no House
Last night.. slept without any pillows, blankets, and bedsheets.. not funz. Have a neck-ache as a result to the horrible posture.
Ohhhh I sooo hope the taxi can take me to JFK.. U.S. got this insane, wacky rules.. You can't go to another state via local taxis... waaaa?!
I juz wanna go HOME!!! DRIVE U CRAZY BASTARD!!!! Pity I can't drive and I'm already 19!!!! T.T
- Location:bed
- Mood: cranky
Wow
Just wow....
Just wow....
I'm so badd at updating stuff...
well if you minus Facebook
well if you minus Facebook
Anyways, gonna update here.. been procrastinating.. My final Paper: Economics. BORING!
Objective ~ find a policy issue on the Obama administration and make an analysis of what we learned in class and write a positive note... <<< that look any interesting to you??!
I got 3/4 done already, just stalling on the last body paragraph and conclusion. Hate them! But I get to post graphs which take like half a page so I'm feeling a bit better now. Oh man, how did the year fly so fast? What the heck was I doing? Wasting my time with games.. My mum's gonna kill me again.. she may not say it but her EYES tell it all..
Every English common core subject I take, I just can't seem to pass. It's like all the English profs hate me or something, or it's prolly just me and my bad luck and the constant laziness.
I recently noticed that this summer's gonna be filled with tons of ACTION-PACKED movies. I haven't been to the cinemas since Twilight came out! How crazy is that?! I really want to watch these awesome movies:
WOLVERINE: ORIGINS
TRANSFORMERS 2
HARRY POTTER AND THE HALF-BLOOD PRINCE
FAST & FURIOUS 4 (watch 3/4 of it online but got cut off at the end)
ADVENTURELAND
Omg! omg omg! I can't wait.. When I come back, I'm gonna drag all my friends to watch with me. Last resort ~ draggin my sis even if she protests. XD
bam! back to the present. Oh yeah, still gotta finish the essay and print. ugh
The storage company came just now to collect the boxes I ordered. Cost like $70 for both medium boxes for the whole summer. Cool eh? I got change for my $100 now. and my cell has $11.00 remaining on my plan. Have to call a taxi tommorrow after my final. A pat on my back to myself, I managed to pack almost everything into my hardcase. I was really worried I wasn't able to fit everything in it. And now I'm like huh? well at least, its not going to cost me any problems later on.
My college meal plan left me with $6.51 WTF! I'm saving that for my meager breakfast tomorrow and a bottle of water I still have cuz my roomie left me a case of water, which is great. I'm not gonna die of thirst.. except hunger.. Been surviving on mostly granola bars and crackers. All my friends left, so sad, I'm considering of killing my economics prof for making us stay soo late. I could have gone home last week.
I miss everything. Food to Boy to friends who are constantly busy with their work. I'm quite glad I went overseas. Facebook is overloaded by SG friends complaining about projects. x3
Well, I think that's it. Gonna finish my essay and then MAPLESTORY!! woot..
I have no LIFE!!
- Location:dorm
- Mood: rejuvenated
- Music:This Time - Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Got a 10/10 for a calcalus quiz..
it probably made my day for about 2 days till thurs lol.
got a test next thurs.. im dreading tat one
~
but braggin it to janine that i achieved better than her
oh man
i dun care if she thinks those photos of me r blackmail n such...
let her think wat she wants..
i dun fucking give a damn! LoL xP
~
im a lot better than her.. i just dun dramatize my life in a way tat she has to..
okie.. im done for tonight..
feel soo much better than i did before =DD
- Location:behind U
- Mood: cheerful
You Scored as Dareigeo, Demon of Rage and Death
You are Dareigeo, Demon of Rage and Death. You are a demon who will kill your victims in the most violent and gruesome methods ever imagined. You like to rip off your prey's body parts and inflict excruciating pain, but only to let them die slowly while you enjoy every second of their misery.
| Dareigeo, Demon of Rage and Death | 96% |
| Xeohelios, Demon of Cunning and Manipulaition | 67% |
| Zendrielle, Demoness of Beauty and Deceit | 58% |
| Sederiana, Demoness of Malice and Lust | 33% |
| Bedegan, Demon of Stupidity and Stubborness | 29% |
- Location:hell
- Mood: creative
- Music:unbreakable - fireflight
he's better now too.
~
Anime club had a girls sleepover on Friday night.
It was crazily insane.. mix a bunch of girls plus momo equals chaos.. actually it was past chaos.. like destruction in the living room
played a couple of board games like Tabooo first, then Aggravation, & we kinda played "twister" on the couch itself lol. hilarious
~
never played taboo b4 so i was excited lol. I <3 the buzzer.
idk wat overcome me to fight with Ashley to get the buzzer lol. it was funny...minus being tickled mercilessly & i cant tickle her cos she isnt ticklish.
then aggravation was next.. i kinda teamed up with ashley...kinda. went after momo like hell.. hahas it was crazy; everytime she moves, i'll be like right behind her, trying to kick her sorry ass piece back into home lol. it was a momo vs me thingie & she would go.. i will kill u, woman! rofl
~
and of course, i swear i must have sat in the wrong place, right next to ashley. that girl pays too much attention on my turn... i cant cheat lol. tried to move my piece like 1 space more...she catches every thing i do.. i dun even know if i should be aggravated or amused tat she manages to stop me from cheating like 90% of the time.. the other 10% was making sure momo doesnt come after me.
~
watched some disney movies tat janine brought over. and then at some point, i think tat was after the twister on the couch, momo tried to carry me off the couch lol.. i hate feeling sooo light. people always comment on me being feather-light. actually the guys i date with tell me that.. seem to loovvee carrying me.. i have no idea why but i enjoy it.. as long as they dun try anything more.
~
soo like we kinda passed out like at 1am. woke up after everyone else like 11:10am.. heather went to make coffee & pancakes.. no coffee for me.. it doesnt work for me.. i feel sleepy even after n i hate the taste.
it ended about noon... the 3 of us were the last to go since we were waiting for the shuttle to take us back. it was great!!
~~
what they dun know is tat borrowing janine's camera wasnt to delete the pics of me.. i actually dun mind taken pics of... i juz hate close-ups of myself. anyways.. this torture of waiting is killing me n she has taken to hide her camera but posted the pics up... only i dun know how long fb takes to show the pics... arghhhhhh i have no patience watsoever!!!! >.<
- Location:my room
- Mood: amused
- Music:Unfold - Marie Digby
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